Bigger Than Us

Two young people from my university were killed in a car crash last night. Whether or not I knew them is irrelevant- I didn't- but it is a tragedy anyway.

Last year, two of my friends and I decide that we were bored on Friday night. Off we went, to the beach, an hour's drive away, along twisty, turny roads in the dead of night. That seems to be exactly what these kids did. Scary much?

It happens to be exam time at the moment. In the science faculty, as well as other faculties, I'm certain, all one hears is "I need to be first in class", "I have to know everything", "I have to get over 80%", or "my life is over if I fail". Now everyone, get a little perspective in your lives, please! It's harsh, but it has to be said. What if it was you in that car? Your best friend? Then would your exams really matter anymore? I have tried to explain so many times that there is more to life than academics. These kids were also in the middle of exams, but does that matter now? No, it most certainly does not. No second chances for them. So next time you're sitting in your exam hall, freaking out because you don't know the answer to the first question, stop, breathe, think of all of those people who have it worse than you.

'headlights on the hillside, don't take me this way..."

I'm Only Human After All

Science sucks. No really, it does. And I don't mean high school science, I mean science at third year university level. This is science to such a degree that I can recite entire paragraphs that sounds like they are written in a different language. When writing about how G1-Cdk phosphorylates pRb so that it is unable to bind to E2F and thus E2F is able to phosphorylate other proteins with the help of cyclin D, it is all I can do not to pack up laughing. I mean, it's so difficult that it almost has comedic value. Almost, but not quite.

Don't get me wrong, I'm fascinated by cellular functions on a molecular level, and everything, but sometimes I wonder why I'm putting myself through the pure hell that is a Bachelor of Science. when all I want to do when I'm Grown Up is to work in the music industry. Writing, producing, promoting, I don't really care what I'm doing, it's the industry in general that attracts me. I know I'm not going to be the next Taylor Swift, but I wouldn't say no to that either...

And if you bump into the devil, him him I understand, rather the devil you know than the devil you don't...

Chasing Stars

This blog is complete and utter rubbish, written when i was bored/annoyed. my writing style was that of a two-year old. read my cool blog instead: http://tochasethestars.blogspot.com

do it :)

Must Get Out

i have g-town cabin fever! i get like this whenever i write exams! i start to go absolutely crazy! i really really need to get out of this town, i've been here 5 weeks, and it's just not healthy for me.

in first year, i was here for 6 weeks in the first term, but that was ok, everything was new. in the second term, i went home for a weekend after 4 weeks, then my grandparents came here for a week after another 4 weeks. third term, i was here for 5 weeks, then mom came to visit. fourth term, i was here for about 5 weeks then i went home for swot week. so needless to say, this is driving me insane.

This city's made us crazy, and we must get out!

Maybe I'm Dreaming

now i have a dilemma...to go, or not to go? quite obviously i can't go without moral support! imagine how awkward that would be! anyway i'm exhausted and falling asleep right here on my couch, right now.
i don't know why (could be exhaustion), but i just had a Heroes flash in my head, that scene where Linderman shoots DL and nikki is sitting with him saying "you could have let it phase right through you". i think it's related to my feelings of how i wish life were simpler. life was so easy back in the days when i used to watch Heroes, it's nostalgia for those times, and not for the actual show. obviously, because the show is still going strong, there is a season and i half that i haven't even watched yet, and if i felt the urge i could download it and watch it right now. i could even download season 1 and watch this very nikki-dl-linderman episode. but i think i got a bit off topic here.
i had the oddest dream last night, i was wandering around the most beautiful forest, taking pictures. my family was there, and there were tigers in cages all around. i looked up the meaning of dreams about forests, and they're supposedly to do with wanting life to be simpler. not that i believe in stuff like that, but it's just interesting to see people's interpretations. i guess it could also simply be the fact that i'm going on holiday soon to a place where the chalets are supposedly in the trees. yeah, that'll be it.

Get me out of this cavern or i'll cave in
(different song, i know, but whatever)

The Only Exception

Really? no, it's just that blogging is becoming an obsession for me.
it's a good way for me to say the things that i can't say to people. at least i'm getting them out of my system so that they don't take up valuable brain-space that could be used for REMEMBERING MY ENVIROS!!! and i really, really need to get a good mark for enviro's. the others, i don't really care about. plus, i worked out that i could get 38% for my micro exams and still pass the semester. that's why i don't care.

(oooh, on anther, completely unrelated note, the killers auctioned off their big K :( at least it was for charity! but still!)

None of it was ever worth the risk...

Awake and Alive

can everybody just calm the eff down???
seriously!
i have been told several times today that if i even knock on people's doors i will be chucked out. relax guys! i know third year exams are a big deal, but really. there is such a thing as too much studying and stressing is just not good for your health at all. i feel giulty for studying so much less than most people. the thing is, i feel like i know my work. i also know myself very well, and i know how i get during exams.
at least i got a welcome distraction in the form of a cake break in the middle of the afternoon. just what i needed...or was it? we all know what lady antebellum says.

I'll do what I want, cause this is my life!